Sunday, May 20, 2012

New Addition

Well, I haven't posted anything in a while so I thought I better catch up on a few things.  We have good news and bad.  I'll start with the bad and end with the good.
Bad news:  We're moving, and not a happy move.  Unfortunately Steve has still not been able to find a job yet.  It's been very stressful, more stressful then finding out what law school to go to, more stressful then moving across the country.  This tops them all.  So... with no job we decided the best thing for us to do is to move back to Utah and move in with my parents for a while until he can find a job to tie us over while we wait for a good law job to come around.  Who knew it would be so hard to find a job after you went to law school, graduated and passed the bar.  It's just a horrible market out their right now, but I'm very confident that Steve will find something, he is very smart and a good worker, it's just a waiting game.

Now enough with the bad news... The good news is we're expecting!  We have a baby on the way and I'm due around Thanksgiving.  It was a HUGE surprise, I really didn't think I could have any more children and yet I am.

I have a long story with this and my fertility story so if you don't want to hear it then you don't need to read on.  
First of all, Steve and I have been trying to get pregnant for almost 4 years now.  It is a horrible up and down journey.  I was diagnosed with a disease called PCOS (polycistic ovarian syndrome)  it is where I don't ovulate regularly and the eggs that I do release sometimes turn into cysts on my ovaries.  It is a very common fertility disease and I was very lucky and very blessed to have the two kids that I have.  For the past 3 or so years I have been on multiple fertility drugs, I did a fertility treatment called a IUI (inuterine insemination) and neither had worked.  Finally I did get pregnant by surprise in October 2010 but that ended in a miscarriage and we were devastated.  Not long after that we decided that maybe adoption might be the way to go so we did research and we just tentatively planned that we would go for it after Steve found a job and things settled down a bit.  Then when the job hadn't come we just put off the whole baby thing for a while and just set it aside.  After we had decided to move to Utah is when we found out that I was pregnant.
Because I don't ovulate regularly I have to induce my cycle to help prevent cysts growing on my ovaries,  to do this I take a drug that is not safe for pregnant women so the doctors say that you HAVE to do a pregnancy test before you start taking this drug.  So after a long while of not having my cycle I decided that I better take the drug.  I went to the store, bought the cheapest pregnancy test that they had (knowing that I wasn't pregnant) and I took it in the morning.  And to my surprise it was positive.  I had to wake Steve up so he could read it because I wasn't sure if I was reading it wrong, and sure enough it was +.  With it being the cheapest test I could find I didn't believe it so I went to the store and bought 2 name brand tests and they both were positive.  We are still shocked and in a little denial but we've seen the little one and have heard the heart beat and everything is going great. 
The timing of this pregnancy couldn't be at a worse time with not having a job or a house to live in of our own, but for some reason it happened now, I know God has a plan for us, maybe it was a way of saying it is the right thing to do to move back to Utah, we both kind of feel like it is but who really knows only God knows.
I didn't really want a 8 year gap between kids but I look at it as with my kids being older they will be big help and they are both so excited, they have been praying every night for a baby brother or sister so it was really fun to tell them.
 The timing may be bad but my parents are helping us so much that I don't even know if I will ever be able to thank them enough.  They have helped us so much lately I can't talk about them without crying, they are the most generous people I have ever met and I'm so grateful to have them as my parents.

I wish I had pictures to post on here but when I had my ultrasound the printer on it was broken so we weren't able to get pictures this time but I will be having one in June and hopefully I can post one then.